and now for something completely different: Trapeze!

That’s right! I went trapezing! What was I thinking… a few months ago there was a groupon for half off trapeze lessons and a friend suggested a group of us try it out. So we did.

Now, I have a crazy fear of falling – not heights as I am on perfectly fine on a stable platform no matter how high and I can look down no problem – so it took me some serious mental convincing so I could jump off the platform. Here are a few photos of the the ridiculous event. Sorry for the blurriness – it all happened so fast!

I’m pretty sure I was screaming for my life at this point:

I also realized that I don’t trust my own body. I have spent so much of my life coming up with convenient excuses as to why I couldn’t do something when I knew I didn’t have the strength/stamina/wouldn’t fit that I realized it is very difficult to start to change that mindset

I don’t believe my body can do things other bodies can do.

I’ve been overweight my whole life, so when I was a kid I never did stuff like the monkey bars because my arms were too weak to hold my weight. Well this all came back at the trapeze gym. I didn’t trust that my arms would support my body because they never could before. It was very difficult for me to let go and trust that I wasn’t going to hurt myself – because before with the extra weight I would have, very easily.

I’m also realizing that this mindset is infiltrating my weight-loss attempts. Simply put, I don’t think I can do it. I see other people who have/can do this, but I don’t think my body can do what other bodies can do. I’m not sure what to do to change this other then keep trying. I really think that I’ve only failed if I give up. If I stop trying.

This week hasn’t been too bad food wise, not as great activity wise as I’d like, but I’ll be off to the gym tonight.  I’ve been eating properly, full meals for the most part and I am within my points but I’m still not sure what the outcome will be Tuesday.

Although I will say I am looking forward to trying more new things in the future even though this was very difficult for me and brought out a slew of issues. I think my mind catching up with my body will be a long process, but the important thing is that I don’t let myself give up in the meantime.

What new things have you tried recently that you didn’t think you could do?

 

 

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6 thoughts on “and now for something completely different: Trapeze!

  1. Wow you are awesome! I haven’t tried anything new lately (except WW) but what I am looking forward to is: Zumba, kettlebell classes and maybe a pole fitness class. Yeah! I just want to get under the 200lb mark before I attempt such feats of bravery.

    • I’ve heard a lot about Zumba and I’m kind of interested, but classes tend not be my thing. Maybe once my summer settles down in August I’ll take a look at it. Kettlebells look cool too.

      I have a friend who tried the pole dancing classes today, but haven’t asked how it went yet. How cool! I’m worried I just don’t have the arm strength for it (just like with the trapeze). Apparently it’s all in the arms!!

      You’ll get there sooner then you think! 🙂

  2. How did you feel once it was over? Do you think you would try this, or similar activities, again? I am intrigued by this because I want to try ziplining although it is something I would have never wanted to try before because of my weight.

    • After it was over I was happy I’d tried it, but to be honest I don’t think I need to try it again. Most of that had to do with the fact that I didn’t feel comfortable to enjoy it. Perhaps I’ll give it a go after I get more used to my body and what it can do, but for now I’ll just leave it to my friends! But I should point out that I did this because a friend suggested it, not because it’s been something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time. I’m very interested in sky-diving though. REALLY want to do that! I am willing to try new things, but for now I am going to spend sometime getting acquainted with this body. I still don’t even know how to dress myself!

      Ziplining sounds great though! That’s something I’ve wanted to do before – I say go for it!

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