That’s right! I went trapezing! What was I thinking… a few months ago there was a groupon for half off trapeze lessons and a friend suggested a group of us try it out. So we did.
Now, I have a crazy fear of falling – not heights as I am on perfectly fine on a stable platform no matter how high and I can look down no problem – so it took me some serious mental convincing so I could jump off the platform. Here are a few photos of the the ridiculous event. Sorry for the blurriness – it all happened so fast!
I’m pretty sure I was screaming for my life at this point:
I also realized that I don’t trust my own body. I have spent so much of my life coming up with convenient excuses as to why I couldn’t do something when I knew I didn’t have the strength/stamina/wouldn’t fit that I realized it is very difficult to start to change that mindset
I don’t believe my body can do things other bodies can do.
I’ve been overweight my whole life, so when I was a kid I never did stuff like the monkey bars because my arms were too weak to hold my weight. Well this all came back at the trapeze gym. I didn’t trust that my arms would support my body because they never could before. It was very difficult for me to let go and trust that I wasn’t going to hurt myself – because before with the extra weight I would have, very easily.
I’m also realizing that this mindset is infiltrating my weight-loss attempts. Simply put, I don’t think I can do it. I see other people who have/can do this, but I don’t think my body can do what other bodies can do. I’m not sure what to do to change this other then keep trying. I really think that I’ve only failed if I give up. If I stop trying.
This week hasn’t been too bad food wise, not as great activity wise as I’d like, but I’ll be off to the gym tonight. I’ve been eating properly, full meals for the most part and I am within my points but I’m still not sure what the outcome will be Tuesday.
Although I will say I am looking forward to trying more new things in the future even though this was very difficult for me and brought out a slew of issues. I think my mind catching up with my body will be a long process, but the important thing is that I don’t let myself give up in the meantime.
What new things have you tried recently that you didn’t think you could do?