Wow. Well that’s the final tally. After taking on a new contract that was a great opportunity two months ago the final result on my weigh-loss journey is that I’ve gained 11.4lbs. I now weigh 169.2lbs for a total loss of 82.4lbs.
This isn’t healthy, I know. This is not a good sign, I know. This doesn’t have to be the beginning of a downward spiral, I know. This is reversible, I know.
So, off I go again. I have one more week left on this contract and I am committed to getting back on track this week. I will not put it off. I need to get back into a proper eating routine – this means to do away with the mindless snacking, no more convincing myself “Oh a couple pieces won’t matter” THEY WILL! In the end it will all add up. No matter what I tell myself, the truth will show itself on my body.
My pants feel tight, my running has suffered, I just feel bloated and uncomfortable. The gain is pretty quick and to be honest I’m a bit surprised at how much I gained. It’s a lesson for sure. I always knew I’d have to watch what I ate for the rest of my life, that part I was prepared for. What I wasn’t prepared for was just how easily I could gain. I’ve read about this from countless health articles that once you’ve been obese your body no longer metabolizes food the same way – i.e. someone who is 140lbs and never had a weight problem can eat X calories, but someone who is 140lbs and has been obese cannot eat the same amount, they must eat less.
This also taught me a lesson about processed food. All my meals pretty much were take-out or delivery. So much uncontrolled salt and fat and oil. So easy to over eat.
In January I signed up for a 5K race in April. April 29th to be exact. My running has suffered. Before this past weekend I hadn’t run for 2 weeks. I only had 7 runs for all of March. Eeesh. Well coming back to it this weekend was tough. Suddenly my runs are harder, my breathing is more laboured, my runs are shorter. But I still have 19 days to get back into race form. This weekend was a good start – I ran 3 times. Friday I ran 4.16km in 25mins. Sunday I ran 4.93km in 30mins. and Monday I ran 4.24km in 25mins. Monday was a bit better than the other ones. I can feel things starting to improve – slowly. My plan is to run 4x a week until race day so I can get back into form. My goal is to beat my time from last year: 35:40. My secret goal is to get under 30mins for the 5K. We shall see. I could have done it easily in February. Now I’m not so sure. But I know the benefits of training and so I am committed.
How I ate over the last two months:
– I had take out or ate out for almost every single meal. It was habit forming, on my days off I’d order out or eat again. It was so much easier! I have to break the habit. This past weekend I cooked dinner for the first time. It felt weird.
– Except breakfast – I still had my oatmeal breakfasts…the problem was the second breakfast I would have when I got to work!
– I snacked. Boy did I snack. It started with the chocolate covered almonds, then it turned to just nuts because they were healthier, and the bread, oh the baguettes!, and the cheese – brie, goat, you name it, I ate it.
– I didn’t cook. Barely. When at home I ate ingredients and never put them together into a meal.
I have learned so much (the hard way) but I am committed to getting back on track. I will lose this weight and reach my goal. I know I can do it, now I need to make the choices that will get me there.