Well here it is. The cold, hard truth – I’m struggling again. This week I had a gain of 3.7lbs. I’m up to 154.7lbs and a total loss of 96.9lbs. Sigh. I’ve struggled a LOT this past week. Well, I guess that’s obvious. What we eat in private we wear in public am I right?
My pants are tighter and I always feel bloated. I hate this feeling. And yet, I can’t seem to stop eating. I’ve realized that I am never hungry anymore – I just keep nibbling and eating a bit here, a bit there…and it all shows in the end doesn’t it.
I just want one good week. One week where I can truly say I ate well and followed the program. So far this week yesterday was a good day. Today was until the very evening and then I went overboard with some peanut butter. I can still save this week – it doesn’t have to be a downward spiral. I want to write more but I just don’t have it in me right now. I’ll try to write more this weekend.
In the meantime the positive of this whole story? I went to weigh-in. I knew I was up. We’d just had a snow storm where we had 30 cm (12″) of snow dropped over night and I had to walk to get to weigh-in before work but I did it. The receptionist said I was the first person to come and she’d been open for 2 hours by that point! So I got a bravo sticker for facing the music even though it could have easily passed. That’s a good thing right?
Here’s my bravo sticker for braving the weather. Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow is a chance to be on track. I CAN do this. I WILL do this.