Happy Blogiversary to me! Exactly two years ago on July 31st, 2010, I started this blog. You can read my very first post right HERE! My how far I’ve come. I started my blog when I was struggling and I had lost 6.8lbs in 13 weeks. (Gee, I guess struggling with weight loss is my normal). My first post talks about my very real fear that I could easily reach 300 or 400 pounds before I knew it. I knew it had been time to take control and so I did.
(I have no source for this as I googled it and it came up in a number of blogs, so I guess the source will be Google.com)
So where am I today? Well I was down 1.8lbs for a new weight of 158.2lbs with a total loss of 93.4lbs. I’m back in the 150s! (third time’s the charm right?) and I’m hoping to stay here. I was not expecting a loss AT ALL. In fact, I was hoping for a stay-the-same. Truly. This week was not great. One day I snacked all day on Honey Nut Cheerios (a friend brought them in and I couldn’t resist!) Another day I splurged on ice cream – something about NYC makes me crave delicious, delicious ice cream – had a scone at a tea shop, more ice cream – this time vegan ice cream with a long lost friend, and then to top it all off, a creamy coconut cupcake from Magnolia Bakery.
Look! I couldn’t even take a picture before I took a bit! Clearly I have a coconut addiction 😉 But I already knew that. I think what this week tells me is that my guesstimating of points in general is probably right. I did eat all this, but still ate healthfully other times and stayed within my points so all is well (so far, let’s hope it doesn’t show up next week). I don’t plan on doing this every week, but once in a while is okay I think.
Delicious! I’m normally a chocolate kinda girl, but coconut makes it all better. I will almost always choose coconut.
Now, I did say it was my 2nd blogiversary – last year I did a giveaway with my favourite cookie cookbook. Well this year will be no different – check back later this week for my next giveaway announcement to celebrate! 🙂 Yay me! I’m proud of my persistence and endurance. I’m happy to still be here, chugging away at this. I’m hoping this means it’ll all stick.
Here’s to another 2 years!
Okay so it was bound to happen. I had a gain. But not a big one (certainly not as big as it could have been). I was up 0.6lbs for a new weight of 160.0lbs and a total loss of 91.6lbs. Not so great, but not disastrous.
I’ll be honest, I didn’t want to weigh-in today. Nope. I was certain it was going to be big gain and I didn’t want to see it. I tried to talk myself out of it by saying I was in another city and I didn’t have time this morning. But seriously, who am I kidding? I could weigh-in, the leader had been letting me, and I had the time – as long as I arrived right when they opened, I would be good.
It took a lot of self-talk to get me there, but I’m happy I went. The gain wasn’t as bad as I had convinced myself it could me and it was just the motivation I need to keep me on track this week. I have a few days left here in NYC and then happily I go home again. I’m excited to sleep in my own bed again and get back to my regular schedule (well as regular as it is!)
The one thing that has really kept me going on the right path food wise these last few weeks has definitely been the NYC fruit stands. I love them! The fruit is cheap and they are conveniently everywhere. I’ve been meaning to grab a photo myself, but here’s one I found online that I think is a very accurate representation:
Alright, I’m off as I am beat. I’m also looking forward to getting back to a better schedule, these 12-hr days, 6 days a week are no picnic!
YEAH!!! I am back in the 150s! Yesterday at weigh-in I was down 1.2lbs for a new weight of 159.4lbs and a total loss of 92.2lbs. Yippee! Seems this getting on track in NYC is working. The hours are long and so I committed to making my food for lunch and dinner here and have kept it up for most days.
I’ll be honest, the food has not been exciting. I eat my oatmeal for breakfast, banana for a snack, a turkey wrap for lunch with a granola bar and some fruit, pasta with vegetable sauce for dinner with veggies, hummus, and fruit for dinner with popcorn or some other healthier snack at night. Not exciting, but it’s keeping me full and on track. I feel so great! It’s always good for me to be reminded that the long term benefits of eating healthfully out weight the short term benefits of sugary, heavy food.
Although that’s not to say I haven’t enjoyed myself. I went out for dinner one night with a friend and hit up a nice underground speakeasy and had a couple decadent cocktails and some lovely ice cream. I also, one night I had this lovely coconut ice cream for dessert!
I did it! I said I wouldn’t, but I did it and went for a run in Central Park. It’s very humid here today so I just did a 5k run. Did you know they have a map of all the distances? How cool is that! I followed the purple and yellow lines starting at 66th street on the West Side. But on the way back I was worried I’d missed the exit and actually ended up out at 7th and Central Park South so I followed along the outer edge back. It was a good run and I’m so happy I did it all the way without stopping given the heat and humidity. It was a thousand times better than running that same route last year. Wow, what a difference a year makes! 🙂
You can download the pdf of the map for free right here: http://www.centralpark.com/usr/maps/CentralParkRunningMap.pdf
Oh joy! I’m in NYC and I decided to try my luck and go to a meeting here to see if they would let me weigh-in with my Canadian monthly pass – and they did! I know it’s up to the individual leader so it was very generous of her. Well I’m super happy she did because I was down 3.6lbs for a new weight of 160.6lbs and a total loss of 91lbs! Woohoo, back in the 90s for my total loss. I hope I can keep this going and get back into the 150s.
The leader was lovely, but sadly I couldn’t stay for the meeting. She, too, has lost 90lbs and is my height. I hope to be able to go back the next two weeks while I’m here to weigh-in. I have to say this loss has really motivated me to stay on track while I’m here. Tonight I had to fight that voice in my head that told me to buy some peanut butter on my way home, but I resisted. Instead I had some popcorn I’d bought before just for this sort of thing. I know peanut butter can be healthy, but I know I can’t resist it and would use way more than necessary and then I probably won’t track it properly. Best to avoid it all at the moment.
How fortuitous though, the main article in this weeks Weekly is about learning to triumph over slip-ups. I’m going to read this one super closely. I very happy I was able to pick this one up!
I’m also really thrilled that there’s a chickpea salad recipe in it. Doesn’t it look delicious! Check it out:
Enjoy! And if you try it before I do, let me know how it is 🙂
So this week has been going really well so far. I’ve been within my daily points everyday except yesterday when I picked up a burrito for dinner. But I still have weekly points available to me. I’m also pleased that the extra points were needed because of dinner and not because I binged on something. This is a small step back in the right direction.
I’ve also arrived in NYC for the 3 week stint and I’m happy to announce I went for a run today! I’m staying in an apartment so I have access to a kitchen to cook my food so I’ve spent the day buying groceries to be prepared to make my lunches and dinners for the week. I’ll have to bring both meals with me each morning, so that’s a lot of food!
One of the ways I try to help myself to stay on track while traveling is that I travel with my oatmeal! Yuppers 🙂 It might be silly, but I find it works for me. This way I know exactly how many points it is and I don’t have to try to find the brands I like in a different city with different grocery stores. I picked up some frozen strawberries to add to my oatmeal in the mornings.
I also bought food to make turkey or tuna wraps all week as well as enough fruit and cut vegetables for snacks, hummus for dipping and some Kashi brand granola bars. For dinner I bought ingredients to make my own pasta sauce and whole wheat penne. Today I made some whole wheat pasta and a tomato, mushroom, spinach. Sorry the photo’s not great, it was dark and my flash isn’t fabulous.
That’s two tupperwares of dinner each filled with one cup of whole wheat pasta and a cup of sauce, beside that is extra sauce to be used later on this week. I chose not to buy any crackers or peanut butter, or even single serving chocolates. I really wanted to. REALLY WANTED TO. But I had to talk to myself – I knew if I had these in my place at night when I got home I would eat them without control. I think I have a good plan for the week. That’s all I can do, take it day by day and week by week.
Hope you all had a great weekend and are enjoying the summer weather!
Wow. There. I’ve said it. So this is the post that has been difficult to write. Something I’ve come to realize over the last couple of weeks is that this is how I feel. I realize that I’ve been cautious and scared of food. Scared that it will make me gain back the weight I’ve lost, scared that it will be my downfall and I won’t be able to control myself.
I’ve noticed a trend lately. Here’s what’s been happening: I will try to minimize what I eat during the day to save lots of points (read: calories) for the evening. I try my willpower and push it to its max and because I’m not eating enough I end up giving in and “snacking”. I’ve been saying snacking has been my downfall, but I’m not being 100% honest with myself – my downfall (my snacking) has actually been a series of mini-binges. I’ll let myself get so hungry by the evening that I’ll eat whatever is around. Crackers, popcorn, PB & J sandwiches, chocolate I was saving, fruit (but too much of it). It’s not healthy and it’s not doing me any good.
It’s making me preoccupied with food. It’s making me not track all this eating (because really, how can I when I didn’t even look at what I was eating?) and then gain which in turn leads me to trying to restrict my eating to lose the weight which ends in these mini-binges. See the disastrous circle I’ve created for myself?
Where is my resolve? Where are my good eating habits I’ve been working on developing? Why won’t this seemingly insatiable hunger leave me alone?
I used to be able to manage my hunger. I used to be able to eat healthy meals and feel full and comfortable. I used to be able to have a treat every now and then and then leave it. I used to be able to resist the nuts and crackers sitting out at work. I don’t know where that’s gone. I’m scared it’ll never come back. I’m scared of regaining.
I came across this list yesterday. I wrote it back in November 2010. What made me pause is that all of this is still true.
When do I eat:
- When I’m bored
- When I’m alone
- When I think I can get away with it
- When I come home late at night
What I CANNOT stop eating:
- French bread
- Fresh rye bread
- Ice cream
- Fresh pita – white
- Tortillas – white
- Box of cookies
- Snacks of any sort
- Cereal – corn pops, quik, anything sweet, but even the granola one
For the most part I do not keep any of this in the house. Certainly not bread unless it’s in the freezer so I can’t get at all of it. Not Nutella, no matter how on sale it is, not tubs of ice cream – I can buy things like fudgesicles in individual servings, but not ice cream sandwiches, no cookies, chips, crackers or snacks other than popcorn in the house and definitely no chocolate or pastries. I also stopped buying cereal -I realized I only ate it at night as a snack. So really, it hasn’t gotten easier as I though it had, but maybe this is a blip? Maybe things will go back to how they were before where it was easier to resist? I don’t know.
This is why I’m actually looking forward to the next three weeks of my life. My time will be very regimented – we work 10am-10pm, six days a week. We have lunch at 1pm and dinner at 5pm. Every day. I will have access to a kitchen and thus I will be able to make my own food. I won’t have time to get super creative, but I will have time to create a healthy lunch and dinner for each day. I also know that I like to eat at night. This isn’t going to change anytime soon so I’ll have to come up with strategies. I will need to have food on hand that I can eat in a healthy fashion in the evening and that will stop me from going overboard in the evening.
So this is it. This is my confession. I don’t know how things are going to go over the month, but I’ll keep you in the loop. I don’t know yet if I’ll be able to weigh-in this month as I’ll be in a different country, but I’ll try. If not, I’ll still be posting updates on how I’m doing.