Weight Loss

Weigh-In Week 129: Nibble, nibble, nibble

Blargh. I’m up 2.0lbs this week. New weight is 163lbs with a total loss of 88.6lbs.  I won’t feign ignorance at all. I snacked. I snacked a lot. I (clearly) didn’t count it properly, and if I’m totally honest I didn’t count all of it.

I’ve been trying to figure out why I am keeping this up and down thing going? What am I getting out if it? I feel comfortable in this body – is that it? I’m comfortable and I don’t want to change things? I think I do. I think I want to get to goal. I think I do… But I feel so stuck in my habits.

I used to be able to control my snacking and nibbling. What happened? When did I lose my willpower? When did I give in? Because that’s what it feels like sometimes. Like I’ve just given in and given up. My gains don’t even bother me anymore because I figure oh, I’ll lose it and then I’ll gain it back – it’s like I’m comfortable in this cyclical pattern I’ve set up for myself.

At today’s meeting my leader had some really great points. One in particular is that she said: “Falling into a schedule can lead to bad habits”. It really struck home because that’s what I think has happened. I’ve fallen into a schedule where I snack at work and I snack at home at night. It’s been hard breaking these habits, and really I still haven’t broken them. I find it difficult to not give in to that voice – that voice that pops into my head at my moments of weakness and says – go ahead, what can one bite hurt? But then one bite turns into another and another and another. I also find it difficult to say no to free food. At work we have a plethora of crackers and snackables just sitting about – none of it healthy (and we work in one large open concept office so I can SEE it all, no out of sight out of mind happening here), I’m often at events where free food flows – why can’t I say no anymore?? What happened? What’s changed?

I need to REALLY re-evaluate how I eat during the day. I miss eating dinner at home – I haven’t been able to do that for about 2 months now. Most nights I’m on the go right after work. I miss making a proper meal – they keep me full and keep my evening snacking at bay.

Well off I go, trying to lose this 2lb gain this week. I hope I can do it. I’d love to have some significant losses, I’d love to feel like I’ve made some progress this year.

On a sillier note, in case you don’t follow me on twitter – yesterday I accidently  wore 2 different shoes to work…and here’s the kicker, I didn’t notice it until well after noon! What?!  Clearly one is an old pair…oops.

Food · Weight Loss

Review: The End of Overeating by Dr. David Kessler

I finished the book over the weekend an it’s given me pause.  As I mentioned before it’s an easy read. I read most of it Saturday morning in bed and Sunday night. It’s also a lot of interesting information in the book.  Some if it is common sense – like eating a diet high in fat, salt, and sugar is linked the obesity epidemic seen in North America and that eating food high in these 3 makes you crave more high fat, high salt, high sugar food. 

At first I was worried it was focused primarily on blaming the food industry. I have serious issues with the general lack of personal responsibility today’s society promotes.  However, he does a good job at delving into the both the psychology and the science behind overeating, and that it’s not just a matter of willpower.

The main crux of  the book is that years of eating food that is high in fat, salt, and sugar has rewired the way our brain operates in relation to food and created what he calls conditioned hypereating and to overcome this we have to in effect re-condition ourselves. 

This is something that I’d always thought. Just like Pavlov’s dogs, we can teach ourselves to change our automated reactions to various stimuli. However, this isn’t easy, nor does it happen overnight. Kessler draws many similarities between conditioned hypereating and substance abuse.  His treatment suggestions share many similiarities as well –  just like a recovering addict the key is to become aware and make conscious changes to our responses to reverse our habits; and reversing habits is more complicated than just a matter of willpower.

The book provides some valuable tools to overcoming overeating. It has reinforced my current views and shaped new ones on weight loss and how important it is to include exercise – not only because you build muscles and shed fat, but because of its effects on chemicals in the brain.  I highly recommend it for anyone looking to truly change their relationship with food. Without a real change in our relationship and approach to food, sustained weight loss cannot happen.